March 2016 summary

Ellip, L3-4:

3/29 (T): 6.56 MI (10.56 km), 85 mins

3/25 (F): 4.86 MI (7.82 km), 76 mins
3/22 (T): 6.70 MI (10.78 km), 85 mins

3/18 (F): 6.29 MI (10.12 km), 90 mins
3/17 (Th): 5.62 MI (9.04 km), 83 mins
3/16 (W): 4.86 MI (7.82 km), 83 mins
3/15 (T): 3.41 MI (5.49 km), 55 mins
3/14 (M): 5.42 MI (8.72 km), 91 mins

3/11 (F): 5.24 MI (8.43 km), 90 mins
3/9 (W): 4.68 MI (7.53 km), 85 mins

★ Total: 53.64 MI (86.32 km)

DS

Bounced and archived.

Reset

...one of the better days:


Distance: 6.56 MI (10.56 km)
Calories: 702
Max. heart rate: 151

Time: 85 mins (.077 MI/min)

♩ Nirvana, and Nirvana.

A breather

In a relaxed MC mode:

Distance: 4.86 MI (7.82 km)
Calories: 520
Max. heart rate: N/A

Time: 76 mins (.064 MI/min)

♩ Type O Negative.

A new week

Hitting L5:

Distance: 6.70 MI (10.78 km)
Calories: 717
Max. heart rate: 197 (!?)

Time: 85 mins (.079 MI/min)

♩ The Beavis and Butt-head Experience.

Chasing my invisible ghost

Distance: 6.29 MI (10.12 km)
Calories: 673
Max. heart rate: 159

Time: 90 mins (.070 MI/min)

♩ Brainscan.The Crow.

New high

Hitting L4 for the first time:

Distance: 5.62 MI (9.04 km)
Calories: 601
Max. heart rate: 158

Time: 83 mins (.068 MI/min)

♩ Mr. Big.

Keeping up

Distance: 4.86 MI (7.82 km)
Calories: 520
Max. heart rate: 166

Time: 83 mins (.059 MI/min)

♩ Type O Negative. My power mix. (And K.S.'s Blindsighted, of course.)

Some more

It was a day that was supposed to be a break, but...

Distance: 3.41 MI (5.49 km)
Calories: 380
Max. heart rate: ?

Time: 55 mins (.062 MI/min)

♩ Queensrÿche.

A new cycle

Distance: 5.42 MI (8.72 km)
Calories: 580
Max. heart rate: 153

Time: 91 mins (.059 MI/min)

♩ Mötley Crüe. Skid Row.

March motto

Live...and let live.

Friday thrust

Distance: 5.24 MI (8.43 km)
Calories: 529
Max. heart rate: 143

Time: 90 mins (.058 MI/min)

♩ Led Zeppelin I & II.

Limit pushing

Distance: 4.68 MI (7.53 km)
Calories: 501
Max. heart rate: 159

Time: 85 mins (.055 MI/min)

♩ Aerosmith.

No more

I.WILL.NOT.FALL.

Truth is...

We are only humans.

On this day

...broken.

"A false glimmer"

i went to bed last night weeping over the grand exit of Quinn and the now lost possibility of a love story between him and Carrie. Of course there wouldn't be one; the show is never about love but losses. But the incompleteness and could-have-been still breaks my heart all the same.

The finale

A distant 1994

Farewell to S.W.

Um hmm

i am aware that i am only on p. 23 but Holden Caufield, you are seriously the whiner of the century.

On 277

"What did you save him from?"

i burst into tears. Just like that. i have a feeling that it won't be the only time.

Ch48

Oh geez. Hurley has been made.

The long awaited 8/25

CS/MG in transit!

#18

It's hard to imagine that TB/AR once gave me such a broken heart that i thought it was the end...and now it is no longer urgent.

But of course, should've known last year it was just a tease. (Deep inside i think you did.)

Mr. Mercedes

i think this is my first serious read when it comes to S.K. Look at his incredible fan base!

(It's interesting i tend not to think of any M/S/T story as one when there is no formal investigation going on. Perhaps it serves as some anchor for me, but hey, you don't know what you are missing.)

GR #200

...thus begins the 46-day countdown to CS/MG.

#LoveWins

No one--not church, not state--gets to decide with whom you exchange your vows. No one but you.

Some anatomy

Strikingly asocial, but utterly humane.

"...and 'Justice for All'"

For E. G., M. B., T. M., and many others.

Nostalgia

What T. W. did in "It's alright with me" was crazy. But enchanting.

"in sickness and in health"

So freaking disheartening.

September 2014

AR is back. AR IS BACK!

Mon cœur est avec toi

Au revoir, Kristine Reiser.

Summer is here?

Waiting for the rain to come. Literally.

Doubled

i found it difficult to believe that both systems had been successfully updated. Must be one of those unbelievably smooth days!

Dignity

You chose all this, so you need to stick it out.

Bull's eye

H.I.G., and H.I.G.!

Speaking of the 100 percent, it's actually an amazing track record.

The search

Seriously...where are you, Δ? C'mon, don't be hiding. (This has got to be a good start, although it's more like a pseudo start.)

A note in early February

Hi nx^n-1...i 'd like to get to know you.

MWAW (2)

The last piece has been archived.

What now?

CC so stuck at CC 421...

:-D

Poncho is safe and great and Samad's is expecting to re-open in a few days!

Praying

Poncho, please come home!

Some magic

Hurray to vlookups!

The symbols

i guess it's all about β, γ, φ, and ψ now.

MWAM

Ebbing.

And flowing.

A whisper

"Si j'en ai perdu la tête, je t'ai aimé et même pire.
Tu es venu en sifflant."

Oh Z., you took my breath away.

Phew...

Alright...temporarily done with 6055. One down, one to go!

Simple as that

How could one NOT fall in love with Jennifer Lawrence?!

Mid-October

Pensando en ti.

Hmmm...

J'avoue qu'il est mignon. OK, très mignon.

Facing the music

"Morally inconsistent." That's indeed what it is.

The adjustment

i am being upbeat.

The long wait

First day of release, and #16 is in transit.

My TB/AR--i know i need to hang onto something, or the idea of you will be...forever LOST.

"Slave to love"

This is a night dedicated to M.R.

A sign

You know you've become a fan when you correctly identify the L/A combination. (Well, another L/A pair--i think it's coincidental yet reinforcing.)

Day 1

Enjoying this solitude. Tremendously.

A nice breather. Soothing music. Complete focus on work--i knew i'd like it!

Peculiar, way too peculiar

THE motorcycle boy reigns.

A break

Sábado Negro. i'd like some more rain.

Some confession

That was M.R. at 32 (or -ish). Hot, sexy, dangerous in an almost surreal fashion and...in an era long gone. (How i miss the '80s!)

Damn, if smiles could kill. M.R. > L.S.K. That is for sure.

Thursday morning

Another rainy day. Dark clouds hanging low.

On my way to work, some woman a few feet in front of me suddenly whirled around with a loud "Seriously??" The guy who just walked past me yelled back, "Are you serious?!" And the woman shouted, "You walked right into me!!"

A lump of heat colliding with another. Ripples of fury threatening to hit me.

But i blocked it with my umbrella. i feel invincible on rainy days.

Falling into place

A sunny Sunday morning. A new beginning.

Hmm

Flying under the radar...

Seriously

Data cleaning is a necessary evil.

...emphasis on evil.

F.M.

So much fire, such madness--F.M. was so alive.

Hmm, "Pretending that you are still around..."

Some mock reviews

2/09/2013: "The Dark Knight Rises" ★★★★★

2/10/2013: "Resident Evil: Damnation" ★★★★★
The irreplaceable L/A combination!

The end

You know, sometimes, delaying it doesn't prevent it from happening.

To Allen Toussaint

Seems like "Solitude" is going to get me through yet another day. So serene, refreshing, and beautiful.

Hmm...where is everybody's Mississippi?

An excuse

i kept telling myself, it was for a good cause, it was for a good cause. The five minutes and the contribution, for a good cause...while deep inside i knew it too well; i was doing this for you.

Not my best brake.

Am i really aging?

Dazed. Drained. Brutally jet-lagged.

Flight notes

(7:25 a.m. EST)

Despite the engine's soothing humming, i am having trouble falling back to sleep.

When we were taking off, I thought, this is it, the much-dreaded flight, the scary 15 hours to come (while I could barely make a 20-min car ride).

The upgrade is worth it.

According to the real-time flight tracker, we are no longer over the Anarctica but somewhere near northeast Russia. Almost half way, and some 34,000 feet/10,363 meter up in the air.

Outside, it fluctuates between -80 to -75 F. Far beneath us, there seem to be endless rolling hills. Some land of ice, snow, or whiteness. Well, whiteness in the dusk, though.

Whether it is -80 or -75F, it sounds like a region of temperatures we human beings certainly wouldn't feel like being exposed to, since we'd die of hyperthermia within ten minutes.

So let's not get exposed, please. Thank you, Mr. Captain.

(10:09 a.m. EST)

Over the Sea of Okhotsk. A name I've only heard of in geography class. The exoticness.

Six more hours to go. Fav music mode = one song repeat. And onto the next one.

Dozing off. On and off. Between brief, dimmed sparks of consciousness and the far, far-away land.

All of you, please guard New York till we get back. We will take the next shift.

(12:20 pm EST)

Incredible stunt in Premium Rush. Do bike couriers really ride like that?

Four more hours.

(1:00 pm EST)

What would I be doing today? Therapy, and more data, probably. I am used to the pattern now; breaking the pattern contributes to my insecurity.

Currently playing: Paula Cole's debut album, This Fire. Paula, I need the energy in your anger.

(2:30 pm EST)

I wonder what the girls are doing. We are so far away from you two now.

(3:40 pm EST)

Will be descending soon. Hello Taiwan, we are back.

A pause

Too much i can't breathe.

...tombe pour vous

Peut-être.

Day 54 (Normal Day 2)

Rehabbing. Am i seeing some dim light at the end of the tunnel?

Reality and beyond...

Nova Scotia--you are on my map. You and AR.

Way of life

Stretch. Relax. Let go.

Resolution 2012

Es hora de seguir adelante.

Resuming...

Une pause de cinq mois et je suis de nouveau sous ton charme. Peut-être que je ne vous ai pas oublié.

One quiet night

TB/AR...vous me manques beaucoup...

Epiphany of the day

If it's at least one cup of milk per serving, then milk allergy could be the answer!

The main pre-move activity

Can't say i am not enjoying the mental (and physical) sorting and organizing at all. It's interesting how human beings categorize differently.

Attention seeker

Hmm...can't help baring it all huh? You must be extremely lonely.

Summer twist

Unseasonably cool, but tremendously appreciated. Gotta love these days!

Hate to tell you this but...

Well, i guess you can't force it--the heart wants what the heart wants.

Painful realization

i can't agree more with T.G. that, although saddening, the MI/DB parting "has run its natural course." That said, i am struggling to see whether it was the missing common grounds, or the ever-unfulfilled expectation. But M., whatever the answer is, my heart still aches for you...

Sunday afternoon

The distant Damn Yankees beyond the humming of the air-conditioner. The tipsiness that's coming too strong. Way too strong. The room dancing. The warmer-than-usual cheeks. Maybe flushed. Definitely Hot.

And you, S. Sexy as hell, and as ever. Yes. Spinning, spinning all around you.

(Sigh)

Entering a phase of endless manual paper shredding/tearing...

Another update?

Can't believe July 2012 opens with a few unexpected turns and opportunities. Blooming! Funny that this is not even my birth month but yours.

Overwhelming, but certainly not overwhelmed :-)

Desperately

...in need of a halt.

Must learn to embrace uncertainty, and perhaps the fact that the luster is tapering off. Huit et ensuite neuf.

Already crushed by the fast train and the first-person heartbrokenness. Mais oui, j'ai besoin de se défouler...et vous devez être fort.

KR #7

Crashed...and burnt.

Let it be you

Where is it next, we wonder?

...no drifting. The dawn of all dreams. i feel like grasping the exact moment when Shopgirl cries, "I wanted it to be you...I wanted it to be you so badly!"

¡Pobrecita!

Ha sido una semana de su corazón solitario y sus lágrimas silenciosas...es el momento de decir adiós... ¡Un verdadero adiós!

Trop beau pour être vrai

Oui, c'est déjà presque fini...(mais je sais qu'il est un peu trop tôt pour célébrer)!

Status update

Revision, triceps, revision, triceps...what an inconceivable duo.

The resistance

i may go nuts once in a while these days, but you see, D., you are still not the center of my universe. You never will be :-)

Always "Black"

PJ20!

My way of headless following :-)
/watch?v=pOM-h-bCHVA&ob=av2n

Current status

Entangled, but i so want to be spinning...

On K. S. and B. W.

i have an urge to draw a heart with "FOREVER" marked in it, add a vertical line through the middle, and then write down K. S. and B. W. on either side of the line - as if a trick like this would actually prevent all of us (yes, "us") from the possibility of a someday that once was a heavy heartbreak. (The lid was pulled off too soon, so the steam is now gone. What's to rekindle? Unless...)

Authors are not gods but story-tellers, that part i am well aware of, but it is very unlikely that we can deny that authors OWN the story. They can have it their way - however they want it developed, or most importantly, ended.

i say, if that much dreaded someday did come, i would, i definitely would put up a fight. In my own way.

"You"

Well, sometimes i wonder if "you" being a different pronoun from "I" or "she" or "they" is a conspiracy of the language itself. No gender indicated, unclear singularity/plurality - "you" is a master of disguise all right :-)

Frankly...

i know this is really n.o.m.b., but none of whatever you are doing now will "fill the emptiness." Been there, done that. All the charade doesn't mean that you've moved on, but you got time...you'll get there.